not so phat tuesday

So I am extremely frustrated right now. This has not been the best of days.

Today promised to be a wonderful day as I was excited about getting to see Manuel on a weekday, going to Mass with him, and then getting to babysit for my favorite family in the world and see my Goddaughter.

Well...seeing Manuel had is good points, but for the most part I was just in a really bad mood for a few reasons: 1. We had to finish making and dropping off all 4300 of his sweepstakes entry forms and I was pressed for time as I had to babysit at 6pm... 2. I had only eaten one bowl of cereal at 6:30am, so my bloodsugar was dragging on the floor all day... 3. I have a test on Thursday that I have to study for and today was the only day I was going to be able to study for it... 4. I needed to get to the camera store before school tomorrow, but as our entry form operation was running behind, it didn't look like I would make it there before it closed and be on time to babysit. You get the point. There were various other reasons why I was in a bad, bad mood, but those were the main ones.

So my mood was pretty much ruining any fun that I was going to have running all over Ames with Manuel. And it did. The only wonderful thing about the day was Manuel's patience with and love for me despite my sharp edges.

I had wanted to leave Ames right after noon Mass to get studying and errands done, but that didn't happen as we were behind in our operation. So then I wanted to leave at four, but we had just started dropping them off then. So I knew that to make it back to Des Moines in time to drop off my stuff and home and get ready to babysit I would have to leave at 4:30 at the latest. Well, at 4:30 I was still there and didn't end up leaving until 4:55, which would mean that I would *maybe* have about 15 minutes to be at home. It wasn't going to be the end of the world, but I was very stressed and anxious and I kept randomly bursting into tears. (Poor Manuel.)

So I finally left and raced back home only to walk in the door and hear from my parents that the lady I was babysitting for had just called and canceled but she wanted me to call her and check out other dates.

I was so mad that I knew if I called her then I would be very tempted to yell, so I quickly called a few camera stores, found one that closed in 15 minutes, and rushed down there.

Then I went to go see Jesus in Adoration to try to calm myself down. I am a bit better but still really upset.

This has just not been a very good day. I honestly can only remember being this upset once in my life.

I know it's not the end of the world, but it sure feels like it today.

God bless America.

pretty as a picture

This is a picture that Manuel took of me when he came to visit in November. Didn't he do a super awesome job? I think so!

best date ever!

So again, it's been a very long time since I last posted. But life has been fairly busy...

First of all, things with Jesus have still been a bit rushed. I am trying to stop at Adoration on my way home from school, which has been nice, and many days I get out early from school, which allows me to make it to noon Mass. God is faithful. I believe that during Lent my church also has daily Mass at nighttime, which would be great! I am also excited for going to a Christopher West conference that my church is sponsoring in March. That should be very good.

School has been getting easier, not that it was hard to begin with. I really enjoy my nursing labs and a project that we're doing with an elderly person from our community. We get to go talk to them once a week and interview then on various aspects of their life (e.g. nutrition status, home safety, health history, etc.). I am working with a lady from my church and working with her has really changed my impression of elderly people a lot. (In a good way.) At first I was a bit upset by the project, but now I know that it will be of great use for my nursing career.

Things have also been going very well with Manuel. Being able to see him once a week rather than every six months has been good for our relationship. We are both happier around each other and it just feels like we have more of a "normal" relationship now. Yesterday we spent all day making entry forms for a grocery store sweepstakes. The store is giving away a $200 gift card and the entry forms say "Apply as many times as you want, but you can only win once." So...my dear, dear boyfriend goes out and gets every single entry form that he can find (about 4,300 or so) and makes labels to stick on each one. We worked on them for at least 6 hours yesterday and only finished half! Hopefully he wins, but I think it would be hillarious if the didn't after all of that effort. It was the best date ever.

I have also been getting a lot happier. When I first had to move back to Des Moines, I got a bit depressed by being home alone all day, not being able to see any of my friends (except Manuel on the weekends), and not being able to see Jesus as much as I wanted too. But I have been making more of an effort to do all of these things lately, as I realized how negative I was feeling. So hopefully soon everything will be going much better.

Well, there's another update. Hopefully I'll be posting more regularly from now on.

Have a wonderful day!

God bless you all!