Wednesday, September 22, 2004

happiness comsumes my soul

So for the past few days, ever since going to confession, I have been really happy. I'm not exactly sure why, other than the obvious answer of grace. In confession, the priest talked to me about things to do when I get impatient, which is one of hte major things I struggle with. Jesus must be helping me accept His grace, because being patient has seemed a lot easier the past few days.

The thing that really amazes me is how happy I am. When I first got to UNI, I was a bit depressed because making friends wasn't terribly easy and I felt very alone, especially at the school's Catholic Church. Nothing has really happened to improve any of this, but my mood has been cheery. I have been able to accept "bad news" and "hard situations" with joy instead of focusing on the negative aspects of my life and driving myself further into sadness.

Jesus has really been helping me take joy in His words and His will. I know that His way is the only true one, and this consoles me. For instace, last night Manuel and I were discussing the severity of different sins. I had never realized how bad they were until that moment and I didn't want to believe it, but I took comfort in knowing that it was from God. It only saddens me that I have ever committed them.

Jesus, thank you for helping me lift my spirits. You are faithful, my love.

1 comment:

sirhair said...

I love you. Just as we should always remember the Cross, we should never forget the Resurrection... together, they form the greatest of mysteries... together, they display God's redemptive love... So remember the cross of your past sins, and then Glory in the resurrection made possible by Jesus, and made manifest through reconcilliation.