Tuesday, April 05, 2005

"the ex"

so i thought i was bad a being a girlfriend.

but evidentally i'm really bad at being an ex-girlfriend.

i wish his peace with this did not make me want to vomit.

i wish i could forget and move on as he has.

i wish my thoughts were not tainted with jealousy.

i wish i could be happy that he is.

-happy for what he's found.

-happy by myself.

i wish i wanted what i know i should.

but do i?

i am very confused.

help me Jesus.

without You, only sorrow can reign.

1 comment:

sirhair said...

I haven't forgotten and I havent moved fully on... I only try to abandon myself to where God sends... even if at times I don't want Him to send me somewhere.